There have been so many times in my life when I have doubted myself. Doubted my worth, doubted my place in this life. What is the purpose? Why am I here?
Over the years things have stuck out to me. One of the biggest things ever said to me came from my sister. I was in a relationship that was abusive and demeaning. I was giving everything, pouring myself out, trying to make it work thinking that it was all I deserved. That this was the best I could get. Then one day, I went to lunch with my sister, and she said, “Blessing, you know you deserve better than this.”
And, I looked at her and asked her what I had been afraid to ask before, “why?”
Without missing a beat, “Because you are God’s daughter. You are a princess of the King of Kings.”
At that moment, Heaven met Earth piercing my heart and soul, Like a lightening bolt. Yes, I am a Daughter of the King and as such I deserve what royalty deserves. I deserve respect and love and care. I deserve more than abuse and self loathing.
It was like this whole time I had been holding onto a burning coal. Fighting and fighting to keep it in my hand because I thought that I deserved it. I had asked for it, so I don’t deserve to let it go. Then she came along and said to me simply, you don’t have to do this anymore. You can let go and live in freedom.
I don’t know if I left there that day and something immediately changed. But, I do know that this was the beginning of knowing that I could leave. That there was better out there for me. Not because of anything I had done or could do but simply because I am a daughter of the King of Kings.
If no one has told you, I am here to tell you today the same thing. You are the Daughter of the King. He loves you very much, so much so that He died for you. He gave His life so that you could live better than this.
Daughter, Sister, Friend, breath that truth in. You deserve more than what you thought. You deserve love and kindness, and respect. You are worthy of that. Not because of anything you can or can’t do. Not because you are a woman or your station in life. You deserve more because someone paid the highest price for you.
The value of something is what someone is willing to pay for that. Your value is the life of the God of the Universe. He lived the perfect spotless life, and took your punishment. He came and took the coal from you that was burning you and destroying you, and has set you free. Walk in that freedom today!
You are a treasure in the arms of Christ!
Lyrics from my favorite song at that time:
Forgiven by Sanctus Real
Well, the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I’m reminded of the wrong that I have said and done
And that devil just won’t let me forgetIn this life, I know what I’ve been
But here in Your arms, I know what I am
I’m forgiven
I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry the weight of who I’ve been
‘Cause I’m forgiven My mistakes are running through my mind
And I relive my days in the middle of the night
And I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry
And in this life, I know what I’ve been
But here in Your arms, I know what I am
I’m forgiven
I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry the weight of who I’ve been
‘Cause I’m forgivenWhen I don’t fit in
And I don’t feel like I belong anywhere
When I don’t measure up to much in this life
Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ’
Cause I’m forgiven
I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry the weight of who I’ve been
‘Cause I’m forgiven
I have been trying so hard to figure things out and I clicked on this. I think I found my answer.